Tonight, once again, I thought, “Not gonna do it today.” I made it through the whole day and when we were about to watch LOST I said, I haven’t done yoga today. Brian said, no TV, go do yoga. Ugh. He was right. I think the idea here too is to understand it’s my version of prayer. I live in my body. This is what I do to pray. This is not exercise or a to do list. This is peace.
So much has changed. In the very beginning, this summer on my first attempt at yoga everyday, I really got the breathing going w/ each pose, moving with breath. This sustains me. Today I really got the ujjayi pranayama –slowing down the breath by making an H sound in a whisper at the back of your throat w/ mouth closed — slows down me rushing through my practice. Not that I take more breaths or even, I don’t think, that each breath is longer…but somehow I got way more grounded, way more out of my head and into my body, and way more slowed down (though as I said, at the same pace) through focus on ujjayi breath. This also activates the diaphragm, strengthening the core but also giving a very strong center to each pose.
I also really noticed tonight my feet were on the mat. Like poured out of a glass and spread out! I was touching ground in a way I never feel in the morning. This suction cup-like feel to the earth gave me that deepening strength in my core, I believe, like leaning back and slouching a little into your chair, relaxed and immovable.
Gentleness. Seeping into me. Gentleness washing over me.